Finding Faith in Christ

Leaving A Life of Haughtiness to Discover Who I Am

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The Sin of Pride

This year has started with much soul-searching, self-reflection, and the process of becoming more humble and less prideful. I have discovered that pride gets in the way of trying to come to terms with who I truly am as a person. Pride is a great facade in that it is often used to cover up a person’s inadequacies and puts on a false front causing other people to see that person as someone other than who he or she really is. Thus, that person is never truly honest with himself or herself, and fails to seek the help and guidance that is needed.

There is a scripture that comes to mind that supports what I am talking about. It is found in Galatians 6:3, and reads, “For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth himself.” The truth is that things are not always as they seem to be. While it may seem that everything is going well in our lives, pride can actually cause us to fall into a pile of nothingness which can eventually lead to self-destruction. For example, some people, because they are too prideful to ask for help, turn to drugs or alcohol to mask the problems that they are having only to discover that after a time their consumption of drugs and/or alcohol leads to self-destruction. This suggests another verse of scripture which is found in Proverbs 16:18, and reads, “Pride goeth before destruction, and an haughty spirit before a fall.”

I have reached the point in my life where I am beginning to be brutally honest with myself, but more importantly with the Lord, as I am discovering my true self. I am particularly thankful for a dear, special friend whom the Lord has placed in my life at this particular season to be a guide and a mentor as I go through this process. I am learning to put my pride aside, and I am learning who the real Karlyn Kay Stebbins is, one day at a time, one step at a time.

Doing away with the pride in my life has humbled me in many ways, one of which is being able to tell my dear and trusted friend about my inadequacies. We often times confuse humiliation with being humble. Being humble for me is admitting my short comings and no longer pretending to be someone who I am not, but allowing myself to trust the process of God’s plan for my life. I leave this with you in the powerful name of Jesus Christ! Amen.

Karlyn Kay Stebbins’ Biography:

Karlyn Kay Stebbins is a guest writer for Morsels Of Bread. She is an addictions counselor and works in a drug rehabilitation center. She has a double major in Sociology and Psychology, and a minor in Communications. She is a convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, having been baptized on 26 March 2011. Her hobbies are reading and writing. She also enjoys spending time with her son and his friends. She is also the Founder of The Conqueror Foundation and has a blog called “Reflection Pays” where she shares her insights.

False Gangsta’s Paradise

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Drug Addicted Person

What I am about to share with you is something that I wrote a few months ago describing my former life as a drug addict and the activities that I was involved in while living that lifestyle. I felt that this is a proper time to share these thoughts because on Saturday, 25 October 2014, I will be celebrating seven years of sobriety. That date is also significant because that is the day that my life began anew spiritually. What you are about to read adequately describes my life before recovery, as well as, my life today as I am privileged and honored to be a part of other people’s lives as I strive to help them cope with their struggles.

The title of this article is “False Gangsta’s Paradise” which is based on the song “Gangsta’s Paradise” which has lyrics that have meant a lot to me. The song has been instrumental in the sobriety process. During the time that I was in jail, this song continuously played in my head and became a powerful tool that helped me to get my life back on track. The song is from the sound track of the movie “Dangerous Minds.” It reminds me of the first part of the scripture found in Psalm 23:4 which reads, “Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death.” The song lyrics, ” As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death I take a look at my life and realize there’s not much left, coz I’ve been blastin’ and laughin’ so long that even my momma thinks my mind is gone” perfectly described my life at that time. I used to live my life in a false gangsta’s paradise,” but on 25 October 2007, I am thankful to report that all that began to come to an end.

At the time that I was incarcerated, I weighed only 87 pounds. I was dead spiritually and was dying physically. I felt as if my life had been shattered into a million pieces and I did not know how to put them back together again. There was no one who could help me at this low point in my life. To the very core of my soul, I realized that I had hit rock bottom. As I was in jail for a long period without bond, it gave me the opportunity to look at my life more closely, and I realized that there was not much left. I had literally destroyed my life by being a hard-core, drug addicted prostitute for too many years. Even with the situation that I found myself in, at first, I still considered life as one big party and laughed at the consequences that I received because of my actions. My life was out of control and I literally felt insane. I went through detoxification for three weeks and almost physically died three times. I soon realized that there was nothing to laugh about anymore and that it was time to get serious and put the partying attitude behind me if I were to ever change my life for the better.

I knew that I could never make such a drastic change on my own. I needed a Power greater than myself to pull me out of the miry clay that I had found myself hopelessly sinking in. On 8 December 2007, I got down on my hands and knees and said five words which saved my life. I said, “Dear God, please help. Thanks.” After uttering those words, I believe that God began to revive my life. Without His Divine Power and Matchless Love, I know for a certainty that I would have died.

It has by no means been an easy road to travel for these past seven years, but I am more at peace than I have ever been in my life. I was once a gangsta for Satan, but now I am a soldier in the army of the Lord.

Karlyn Kay Stebbins
June 14,2014

Karlyn Kay Stebbins’ Biography:

Karlyn Kay Stebbins is a guest writer for Morsels Of Bread. She is an addictions counselor and works in a drug rehabilitation center. She has a double major in Sociology and Psychology, and a minor in Communications. She is a convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, having been baptized on 26 March 2011. Her hobbies are reading and writing. She also enjoys spending time with her son and his friends. She is also the Founder of The Conqueror Foundation and has a blog called “Reflection Pays” where she shares her insights.

Faith – The Substance of Things Hoped For

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How can I see Heavenly Father's hands in all things?

In the Bible, in Hebrews 11:1, we read, “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” This scripture talks about having faith in God regardless of how turbulent the waters that we pass through in life may become. “For we walk by faith, not by sight” (2 Corinthians 5:7).

I am a recovering drug addict and there was a time in my life when I put all my faith and trust in narcotic substances. My entire life revolved around getting the next fix which I thought was the solution to all the problems that I was facing. I was totally oblivious to everything around me as I aimlessly weathered the storms that were raging all around me.

On 24 October 2007, I ended up in jail and did not realize hoe serious my situation really was. For all practical purposes, I was DEAD spiritually, mentally, emotionally, financially, and not very far from being dead physically. It is only because of the loving grace and tender mercies of the Lord that I am alive today. At that time I weighed only 87 pounds and my eyes were sunken in. It took 3 weeks to detox, and I almost died several times during those 3 weeks.

Woman Kneeling in PrayerI knew that I could no longer live my life the way that I had in the past. There had to be a drastic change or else I would die considering the state that I was in. I started to put my faith and trust in God and was blessed with finding the Restored Church and the gospel of Jesus Christ. I began investigating The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (inadvertently called the “Mormon” Church by the media and others) and was baptized a member of the Church on Saturday, 26 March 2011. Since I have repented and have turned away from my old lifestyle and habits, putting my faith in God one day at a time, I have truly found the real “substance” that I had searched for many years to find.

Unlike my former lifestyle when I put my faith in powdered substances, I now find that even when I am experiencing adversity in my life, faith in God is the only true substance that I need to sustain me today, tomorrow, and forevermore. My faith is made stronger as I learn to put my trust and confidence in Him to lead, guide, and protect me in all situations in life. A question that I ask myself on a daily basis is, “Is God my substance today?”

Karlyn Stebbins; 3 April 2014

Karlyn Kay Stebbins’ Biography:

Karlyn Kay Stebbins is a guest writer for Morsels Of Bread. She is an addictions counselor and works in a drug rehabilitation center. She has a double major in Sociology and Psychology, and a minor in Communications. She is a convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, having been baptized on 26 March 2011. Her hobbies are reading and writing. She also enjoys spending time with her son and his friends. She is also the Founder of The Conqueror Foundation and has a blog called “Reflection Pays” where she shares her insights.